K1rs's Evo Poem Blog ! 1up

K1rs's Evo Poem Blog ! 1up http://k1rs.wordpress.com It's Just my blog, a cause of evo effectin my values thoughts feelings viwes ect.. Sun, 16 Jan 2011 16:32:56 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.com/ http://s2.wp.com/i/buttonw-com.png K1rs's Evo Poem Blog ! 1up http://k1rs.wordpress.com The date! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/08/02/the-date/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/08/02/the-date/#comments Mon, 02 Aug 2010 10:43:21 +0000 Chris Coo0kie https://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/08/02/the-date/ ]]> August 2 2010 11:43am .The date! Release date that I’ve longed seems ever close
now ! I’m hoping to hear back from motabilty this week saying they
will pay for my wheelchair then I want to see how long it takes
from that point ! . It’s getting to me they way they long
everything out !! It’s all starting to take it’s toll on my sanity! I feel down sad angry flat ! .
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/08/02/the-date/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy count down http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/10/count-down/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/10/count-down/#comments Sat, 10 Jul 2010 04:14:45 +0000 Chris Coo0kie https://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/10/count-down/ ]]> Waiting is all I seem to be doing it’s been well over a
year since i’ve started the fight to get my car back now that I’ve
been given the go ahead it seems like they are taking even longer .
I haven’t chosen my car I just chose the wheelchair last week so
let’s see how long they take to say they will pay that one ! . I
feel that I should be exercising but I don’t feel motivated . We
are trying to move back to London so this is the next battle we’ve
filled out a application so we will see if the say yes we can join some
how I think they are going to say no so this will be the next
battle .!
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/10/count-down/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy count down http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/late-night/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/late-night/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 10:40:08 +0000 Chris Coo0kie https://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/late-night/ ]]> Up real early with hope that the wheelchair rep brings
chairs I like and the two chairs I asked about !
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/late-night/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Feelings of power http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/writers-block-that-turns-out-to-be-a-bru/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/writers-block-that-turns-out-to-be-a-bru/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/08/23/writers-block-that-turns-out-to-be-a-bru/ ]]> Writers block but I feel well brewed!! like a tasty stock,
Its the heat from unconditional love that brews this stock ! I’m
strong so strong god you made me I’m ur son !!!
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/writers-block-that-turns-out-to-be-a-bru/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy The interview day http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-interview-day/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-interview-day/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/08/22/the-interview-day/ ]]> Today I woke with the first thing on my mind , job
interview . At that point I wasn’t feeling nervous . I put my blue
suite on and white shirt I wanted to put my tie on with it but
realized that I couldn’t fit into the shirt well my neck had gotten
fatter to the point that the bottton couldn’t do up the funnie
thing is I thought I had lost wight but it seems I’ve put I it on
some what !! Anyway as the time drew closer I began to get nervous
to the point I felt sick and started thinking of all the things
they may ask and how I would answer the qestions ! Well I feel it’s
a good thing as it helps me to focus on what could happen . I feel
the interview went okay !! I answered all the qestions they asked !
So now all I’m waiting for is to hear back if I was successful and
they said I should be hearing back by the end of next week .
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-interview-day/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy New page about to turn http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/new-page-about-to-turn/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/new-page-about-to-turn/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/08/17/new-page-about-to-turn/ ]]> Today I didn’t do much at all but read a bit and sit in the
sun in the garden . 2morrow is Monday up early for my work out at
the hospital . I’m getting butterflys thinking about my job
interview on Friday . I need to think about what I’m going to say
when they ask qestions !! Hospital tuesday ! Haven’t seen or been
to hospital in 2months it’s been the longist i’ve been away from an
not stayed in hospital in 2years !!! Kinda weird tho I feel abit
weaker and that’s never a good thing . My feet are still swolllowen
to the point of one pair of my many shoes can only be warn ! Errrmm
well maybe not just one lol

… Alot seems to be going to happen
very soon !!
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/new-page-about-to-turn/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy The sun back ? http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-sun-back-bl/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-sun-back-bl/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/08/09/the-sun-back-bl/ ]]> Today I was up early as my little cuz’s would be comming to
stay , but as I woke it was humid which was a good feeling and was
hoping it ment the weather would be good. which it turned out to be
. The sun was out and it was hot

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-sun-back-bl/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B Back up ! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-ways-of-the-pod/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-ways-of-the-pod/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/08/08/the-ways-of-the-pod/ ]]> The iPhone killed it the pass few days, leaving me near heart broken !! How can iPhone make a phone that u can’t store numbers on ur sim ur own SIM !! Plus all my notes just little note but something said to me copy my photos to my pc and send my bio to my email as a back up, with my poems feeeew !! Because the little sh**t broke down and wouldn’t turn on !!
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/the-ways-of-the-pod/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy New pogo stick http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/new-pogo-stick/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/new-pogo-stick/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/08/01/new-pogo-stick/ ]]> I’m writing with my new iPhone pen it’s working a treat love it !!
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/new-pogo-stick/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Blog blog http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/blog-blog/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/blog-blog/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/10/blog-blog/ ]]> Today started off with waiting for hospital transport and then them calling to say they are short of staff and will not be picking me up

was annoeyed for a sec so I called my uncle to ask if he could drop me wich he could ! I was thinking of cancelling but thought if I do I will be angry at myself for not trying to find a way if it was possable to do .
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/blog-blog/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Workout blog http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/workout-blog/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/workout-blog/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/09/workout-blog/ ]]> In bed lol . Today been a sort of productive day . Called
car company and they said there’s been a back log but I’ll hear
from them soon regarding my assessment in another two weeks . I’ve
been fighting my demonds and not letting it domenate me ! I dragged
myself to the standing frame 2wise lol not as much as I’d like I’m annoyed but I’m not going to beat myself up about that fact. I’m up early
tommorrow hospital workout so on that note I’m out .
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/workout-blog/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Missing love http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/missing-love/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/missing-love/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/08/missing-love/ ]]> Missing love, my heart feels it needs the love of a women .
Only one that wants to be in its chambers!. With one out come at heart!! Guilty .I love you in all !. Missing love, my heart feels it needs.

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Filed under: Uncategorized ]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/missing-love/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Waiting game but I’m trying http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/feelings-of-power/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/feelings-of-power/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/08/feelings-of-power/ ]]> Today I’ve started with pushing those thoughts that put me
off from being productive and just focus on workingout ! I used my
standing frame six times for the day and stood for 20 mins a time
so I’m pleased about that . I sent a email to C.A.B after to
hear back shortly about that . I’m feeling slightly annoeyd with
myself as per normal about not contacting my friends by email but
I’m going to do this today as it’s 1 am something now ! . I still
haven’t heard anything about my car as yet still that is on my mind
and has been threw out the day and on that note I’m out but will
blog 2morrow .

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Filed under: Uncategorized ]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/feelings-of-power/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Sight o sight http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/sight-o-sight/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/sight-o-sight/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:19 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/10/26/sight-o-sight/ ]]> How am I mean’t to see, when my sight is being covered all
the time . How are are u really mean’t to see when there’s no light
!?

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/sight-o-sight/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Who’s waiting for this man!! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/this-man/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/this-man/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:19 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/10/26/this-man/ ]]> Who’s waiting for this man !. This man Who’s behind four
falls !. Who’s waiting for this man !. This man who’s eyes are the
only windows for him !. Who’s waiting for this man !. This man
who’s so weak in body needs help to pull his pants down and up to
piss or shit !. Who’s waiting for this man !. This man who’s dyeing
inside and out !. Who’s waiting for this man !.
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/this-man/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Folk in my road http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/folk-in-my-road/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/folk-in-my-road/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 02:54:19 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/09/15/folk-in-my-road/ ]]> It’s been awhile as per normal since I’ve blogged guess I
see a patten lol but one thing I’m not going to beat myself up
about not blogging . Since then anyhow things are a bit more clear
for me as how to go about getting the funds and the steps needed
before hand ! I applied for a few courses at a few colleges. I’ve
been turned down for one as it was full waiting hear back form the
others but tomorrow I’m going in the see what’s happening and going
to apply to a few other collages to see what they have and if there
are any spaces ! I didn’t get the job I feel disapointed but after
emailing the the lady who interviewed me and asked her what she
thought of if and if she could give me any pointers what I could do
diffrent ! I felt as tho I did well as she felt there was a strong
field this time and it was because of the current times why I never
got the job as the people had more experience. i get that but I
thought we would be trained and you never needed any experience?
thinking about it as I’m typing this I’m getting annoyed at that
fact and the fact I know I want to chase her up about that but know
I’m not going to !! . I know why that is I don’t want friction or
like it !! Guess that links in with that whole thing of me wanting
to be liked by most people at any cost !! I dislike the fact I have that feeling that tries to govern over me at times. well I can I will start taking steps to
Challenge this !!
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/folk-in-my-road/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy The little things count! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/blog/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/blog/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 01:54:19 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/10/26/blog/ ]]> I’m in bed it’s been a while once more since I’ve writen
anything it feels like I don’t have anything to say and I haven’t
writen any poems in a good few weeks I’ve been writing a my bio tho
it seems to be coming on but very slow I only wish I had some one
to write for me I feel weaker I haven’t been motatvated to do
anything I haven’t prayed in a while I will tonight and thank god
for blessing me and on that note I’m out , tho I feel like I should
be writing much more about what’s been happening with my car and
with how I’ve been feeling and my new newthew Joshua the little
cutie I tell you one thing he gets big kiss every morining from me
even if I feel down hearing him cry in the morining or knowing he’s
down and awake changes that. he smells like lemons with his fat
cheeks and little wiggling tung when he crys makes me smile
!
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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/blog/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B Here U Will See Me !‏ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/inclosed-with-a-photo-what-are-blogs-4/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/inclosed-with-a-photo-what-are-blogs-4/#comments Tue, 06 Jul 2010 23:54:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/08/23/inclosed-with-a-photo-what-are-blogs-4/ ]]> Today I never done much but read on the Internet about a
wheelchairs as I’m looking for a new one I know which one I want,
just need to come up with the sum of £5000!. Found one charity that
will donate £1200 towards it, I’m thinking of handing in my chair as
part of the payment but thinking about it, it will only come upto
£2000 just .mmmm what to do !!?!? Guess I’ll have to ask my physiotherapist if
there’s anything that could be done !! Anyhow I thought i have posted a
photo of how I looked yestaday for my interview !!

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Filed under: Uncategorized Tagged: poem ]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2010/07/07/inclosed-with-a-photo-what-are-blogs-4/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Little entry http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/5th/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/5th/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 17:06:12 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/5th/ ]]> In bed and iphone in hand ready for blog time. It’s Sunday
5 july I’m up early hospital tomorrow for my work out . Today been
a frustrating day I’ve not worked out since my last hospital
workout and I’m feeling annoyed !!

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/5th/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B Here U Will See Me !‏ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-here-u-will-see-me-%e2%80%8f/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-here-u-will-see-me-%e2%80%8f/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 17:04:25 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-here-u-will-see-me-%e2%80%8f/ ]]> Here you see me. it’s not history. it’s now these fingers
stay bent, look in my eyes, the fire’s hot, im not playing ,ready to
bust like my freshly filled hot water bottle, just ran over in this mid
day summers afternoon. The love was gone but now it’s back round,
like round two still fresh and o so up for the get down !! Can you
see me feeling god’s gift to me like the 1st ever feelings of sadness knowing that
my mum was hurting!! alive in life is how I feel now right now
blessed that the path isn’t so bad right now !! Gods love !! Mums
love !! Sis love !! Bros love !! Fams love !! My dogs love !! One
love amen .

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-here-u-will-see-me-%e2%80%8f/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B I’m feeling happyer at da mo‏ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-im-feeling-happyer-at-da-mo%e2%80%8f/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-im-feeling-happyer-at-da-mo%e2%80%8f/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 17:02:43 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-im-feeling-happyer-at-da-mo%e2%80%8f/ ]]> I’m feeling happy thinking maybe I could get a car. Things have been hard since I’ve lost my car my fight to live and face the real has been sidestepped!, then the love of my mum lifting me up and holding me while sidestepping me back into reality! And that kept me moving and to in bark on a journey and inrol again on a counselling course. In the 3d year , i met my now ex partner and dropped out very soon afterwards. I was searching for happiness within myself a just be happy in life . now Iooking back I’m much happyer now and know myself loads more I’ve matured and have strong values that I stick to with ease and that feels good even if at times it’s not easy for others to take or see or like and that goes for myself also!! Now I know it’s just the way of the world ! We can’t be loved liked by all and life is never going to be happy and easy all the time and YES I can cope Im way strong enough.

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-im-feeling-happyer-at-da-mo%e2%80%8f/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B Laying DWN 4 Abit http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-laying-dwn-4-abit/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-laying-dwn-4-abit/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 17:00:37 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-laying-dwn-4-abit/ ]]> B Laying DWN 4 Abit

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-laying-dwn-4-abit/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B A Rucksack http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-a-rucksack/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-a-rucksack/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:58:14 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-a-rucksack/ ]]> Everyday everynight feels like stones on my back, in this rucksack of baggage of life I’ve been dealt!! A sack that only seems to get fuller by the day , pushing me to my limits!! This rucksack of mine .

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-a-rucksack/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B Still Be A Child http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-still-be-a-child/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-still-be-a-child/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:56:00 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-still-be-a-child/ ]]> Here I be gods child, my mothers son !! Yes life has been harsh to me ! Tho every corner seems new! holding tight well gripped I’m not slipping by choice ! Trust is not where it’s at tho my faith is strong a vaules well rooted ! I stand firm here I be gods child mothers son !!.

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-still-be-a-child/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B The Truth http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-the-truth/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-the-truth/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:53:49 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-the-truth/ ]]> I’ve been buyin so many things I don’t really need I know it’s because it makes me feel good about myself for a short time. A another way of copeing with the fact I’m alot weaker then I want to be and also the fact that I need to be exsizing so it only takes my mind off the turth !!

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-the-truth/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B Bed Legs http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-bed-legs/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-bed-legs/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:51:26 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-bed-legs/ ]]> The bed legs ,led like and swollen, weak ! Yea these fuchking Arms heavy so fast to tier ! Too they Fight me all way, pulling my feed away like spikeful helpers in the wrong job !

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-bed-legs/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy B Back up ! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-back-up/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-back-up/#comments Mon, 06 Jul 2009 16:49:03 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-back-up/ ]]> Back back up against the wall why do I feel this heavy in mind body an soul the weakness sadness overwhelms me ! I’m all fighteded out and I’m saying this is the end of the fight In me , i feel ready, been ready and waiting for some time now! Thats all it was, I never really looked but now I’m ready for the part , I look it !! Where do I turn please hear me almighty help my mother sister brother and me for we need you now I need you, send angels to help please o lord trapped and down well laybered soul battered and drawn in , strenghtless we four need you in ways only you know how to help please farther help us as I’m writing this I feel anger in me please >>>>>>>>>>> help help help help help help help help help………………

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/07/b-back-up/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Picture of the park http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/06/picture-of-the-park/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/06/picture-of-the-park/#comments Sun, 05 Jul 2009 18:49:51 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/06/picture-of-the-park/ ]]> Queens square !!! On a hot summers day !! 2009 July 1

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/07/06/picture-of-the-park/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Fired up after hospital http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/06/05/fired-up-after-hospital/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/06/05/fired-up-after-hospital/#comments Thu, 04 Jun 2009 22:57:08 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/06/05/fired-up-after-hospital/ ]]> Feeling fired up!. Just spent my norm three day stay in hospital . Met some interesting new cool people . I’m now thinking of my next steps ! Soon I’ll be called for my assimment to see what type of adaptions I would need !! Feel nervus about it feels kinder like maybe they will be looking for reasons to say why I can’t drive !! but I’m trying not to focus on a negative out come or think to much about it ! as I’m typing this I’m finding it hard to hear myself ( how I really feel ) .I’ve said to myself after a few talks with my new counsellor . I want and need to hear myself and value myself well value myself is at the core but in order to do so I need to hear myself !!

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/06/05/fired-up-after-hospital/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Its been sometime ! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/05/27/its-been-sometime/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/05/27/its-been-sometime/#comments Tue, 26 May 2009 16:03:08 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/05/27/its-been-sometime/ ]]> A! What can I say other than I’ve not been blogging as much as ive could have been a few things have been going on for me it’s been a hard time !. I’ve felt like giving up after receiving the news I would never want to hear ! I was told by motabilty which is a charity, the only company/organsation that helps people with disabilitys to get a car/van ect adapted if need and insures them. anyhow few years ago when I had my last car and drove I had a few claims and wrote off one car and drove without a full driver beside me when I had no license and that was over four years ago when I was not mature and never realized the impact it would have on my life, if I never had a car! anyhow they took the car back at the end of the contract and said they wasn’t willing to take me back on the scheme at that present time which I appealed but was turned down which I feel was right I was in shock at the fact my freedom was taken from me in a second !! I tried to get the adaptions taken out of the car which was mine by law but the car was taken and sold before I had a chance so there alone was a next problem because they cost over £6000 and would need them to drive any car If I was to get one ! Passing my test had no merit to them or the fact I was pleading with them this was my freedom ! Anyhow I’ve applied and asked if I could be reinstated and truned down once more after a letter pleading ! After four years you would have thought a second chance would be granted even people who drink and drive people who have many crashs drive with no license get a next chance and I feels like being disabled there is no one more chances or other options .I can’t just drive or afford any car, so there for they have so much power it’s unreal !

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/05/27/its-been-sometime/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Title here <<<<< http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/05/01/title-here/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/05/01/title-here/#comments Fri, 01 May 2009 00:07:26 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/05/01/title-here/ ]]> 1:08am 1/05/09 back in the most cozy place for me to write !0o! Bed that is and about to get some zzzz’zzz but first a little sum’z of the day which has come to pass and now which has unfolded into a new day !. Woke up late feeling real tired ! This reminds me of how I feel when I’m getting weaker . This has been happening for the pass few days and dosent seem to be passing! then from that point of me dragging myself up the first thing on my mind is tea LOL followed by a anoyed feeling that I’m going to get weaker if I don’t work out but what do I do but head stright to my pc ! Kmt

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/05/01/title-here/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Late night blog http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/24/late-night-blog/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/24/late-night-blog/#comments Thu, 23 Apr 2009 23:13:49 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/24/late-night-blog/ ]]> 12:14 am 23 :4:2009 laying in bed thinking how easy I’m anoyed by others that I know don’t care much for me I guess it’s that thing in me wanting to be loved by all speicaly the ones u want to care but they don’t really care . I know it’s a work now play later time for me but I feel so dazed and side tracked !.

It’s focus mode time !!!!

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/24/late-night-blog/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy My side .. … …. http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/my-side/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/my-side/#comments Mon, 20 Apr 2009 19:39:00 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=81 ]]> God knows best ! God’s destniy ! In god’s hands ! Nothing to
something, all possable with god on my side and the love of a mother
bro and Sis! life feels good I’m ever so up and ready for this fight
that’s had me up on the ropes for sometime now !! 11:36pm

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/my-side/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy New way of thinkin .. … …. http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/new-way-of-thinkin/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/new-way-of-thinkin/#comments Mon, 20 Apr 2009 19:25:45 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=79 ]]> Destiny turns nothing into something !

Destiny to turn nothing to something !

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/new-way-of-thinkin/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Sign of a baby ! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/making-of-me/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/making-of-me/#comments Mon, 20 Apr 2009 19:21:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=77 ]]> O god make me a man I’m filled with loneliness sadness anger I feel
lost in life crying I wish I could. no one but you and those closes to
me knows the pain. people see the strenght and know not the life of
pain. is this path one of hardship I’m so battered my strenght low
weak in all my seance’s!! is this not a sign of a baby and not one of a
man ! O god make me a man !! amen .

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/making-of-me/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Need A Pass http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/need-a-pass/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/need-a-pass/#comments Mon, 20 Apr 2009 19:04:21 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=74 ]]> Soon to be back in the fight for life gifts, with one with the power of
knowing what the outcome will or could be , so I ask bless me with a
path of understanding children of urs too see, hear and allow me passage
thro .

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knowing what the outcome will or could be , so I ask bless me with a
path of understanding children of urs too see, hear and allow me passage
thro .

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/21/need-a-pass-2/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy No news http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/18/no-news/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/18/no-news/#comments Fri, 17 Apr 2009 19:11:18 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/18/no-news/ ]]> They say no news is good news hmm not sure guess that person who said that crap has never had to wait for something important ! Or really never cared much to come off with that .

Well they may be right because the news I longed for turned into the news of my night meres !!

Well I feel like there’s a storm brewing in me lol quiet storm !!!

K.1.r.S Co0kie

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/18/no-news/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Me as me http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/16/me-as-me/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/16/me-as-me/#comments Thu, 16 Apr 2009 07:57:55 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/16/me-as-me/ ]]>

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/16/me-as-me/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Little note to myself http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/16/little-note-to-myself/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/16/little-note-to-myself/#comments Thu, 16 Apr 2009 07:49:36 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/16/little-note-to-myself/ ]]> It’s been close to a month since I’ve posted any of my poems partly is due to not having time but mostly it’s down to lazyness ! I’m not happy about this that’s why I’m posting this blog in aid to ease my mind !! Lol

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/04/16/little-note-to-myself/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Silly little ***? lol http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/21/silly-little-lol/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/21/silly-little-lol/#comments Fri, 20 Mar 2009 22:56:16 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/21/silly-little-lol/ ]]> Silly little game player , so lost and you don’t even know it ! You live for the bellyfull which is always hungry and has never mantained contentness !! Silly little game player , so lost and you don’t even know it !!!

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/21/silly-little-lol/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Back on the stand http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/21/back-on-the-stand/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/21/back-on-the-stand/#comments Fri, 20 Mar 2009 22:17:28 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/21/back-on-the-stand/ ]]> Trying to stand, when’s it’s hard and these legs are on a tip where they wanna bring me down !! freshly gripped kicks I’m moving no-were !!! Here I’ll stand !

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/21/back-on-the-stand/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy What an ass !! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/ass/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/ass/#comments Tue, 17 Mar 2009 10:43:50 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=51 ]]> Life on the ass in my eyes will be a drag everyday at some point and
ay I’m not talking about the fact ur on ur ass and ain’t never going
to walk again but the fact ever u will be dragging it back in to it’s
place being a chair and yes it go’s from the toilet or some sort of
in my case at hand it’s chair bed bed chair chair toilet toilet
chair it’s still all ass well life on the ass and a drag on one lol

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/ass/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Tell me then ! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/tell-me/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/tell-me/#comments Tue, 17 Mar 2009 10:32:40 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=48 ]]> In bed bi papped up ! It feels near too death with theses heavy
fucking laybered breaths fighting me to stop . So what do you really
no !! .about the fight ,pain , the reality, it’s a struggle !!so” fuck
what you think it’s about what you know “this life of none stop
keeping up with the Jones’s with no way out of this mad reality , so
what do you really know about the fight the pain the reality it’s a
struggle , I’ll tell you!! “ ” is what it is.

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/tell-me/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Recall http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/recall/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/recall/#comments Tue, 17 Mar 2009 10:27:37 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=46 ]]> I just want to write, I’m one step closer to death with each closing
night !! Life passing quick so quick like dirty chicks draws getting
pulled to one side ! So fast it’s moving new faces come and pass each
day only to leave new paths for recall !

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/recall/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy My sack http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/my-sack/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/my-sack/#comments Tue, 17 Mar 2009 10:22:41 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=44 ]]> Everyday every night feels like stones on my back in the rucksack of
baggage of life I’ve been dealt a sack that only seems to get fuller
by the day , pushing me to my limits!!

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/my-sack/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Weak vs me ! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/weak/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/weak/#comments Tue, 17 Mar 2009 10:19:20 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=42 ]]> The bed legs, led swollen and weak ! Yea these fucking Arms heavy so
fast to tier !to they Fight me all way, pulling my feed away like
spiteful helpers in the wrong job !

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/weak/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Hypocrite wants help ! http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/hypocrtie-wants/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/hypocrtie-wants/#comments Mon, 16 Mar 2009 19:33:13 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=40 ]]> All I wanted to do was be there for you but love is a game to you. I need a change something fresh, clean new please. I’m sorry almighty for I know I’ve been a hypocrite ! When all you ask of me, Is what I search for but yet can’t show you the same. I’m not the same ! When I treat your love so loosely, I am a hypocrite . Forgive o farther I love you. I know the man I am and want to be . And this is not who I want to be !! Take me by the hand and lead me for I’m lost in the here and now !!.

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/hypocrtie-wants/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Weakness http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/weakness/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/weakness/#comments Mon, 16 Mar 2009 19:18:12 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=38 ]]> How can I cope when this feeling of deep sadness consumes my every feeling that’s to surface!! I’m so sad so down so weak in sprit tho the people who love me seem to find strength help me o mighty pls!!

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]]> http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/weakness/feed/ 0 k1rs AkA Cowboy Don’t want this http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/dont-want-this/ http://k1rs.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/dont-want-this/#comments Mon, 16 Mar 2009 19:05:28 +0000 Chris Coo0kie http://k1rs.wordpress.com/?p=36 ]]> I no I die alone but when I wake and open my eyes all see four falls ,this isn’t heaven all I want is life…

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